Raining in agony Day

I admit i WASN'T a smart child from the moment I'm born to this world hence I'd to work TWICE as hard as others to achieve my aims. I don't give a fuck to comments such as, "Oh, WAH, YOU STUDY SO HARD ah? I never even study for these leh, anyhow do some more but don't know why will score so well " OR " you aiming to get these grades?!! *(with extreme surprised + BIG-WIDE-EYES kind of look) Are you sure you're capable of it...? " Yea. If that's what majority think, trying to demoralize me, by all means then. I don't give a fuck shit to what you guys think. I do what I'm supposed to and that's all. Don't assume you understand me when you're not even qualify ENOUGH to say that. I'm not referring to anybody here if you'd notice, i used the word "MAJORITY" thus whoever reading this, don't feel hurt please. Lol. Furthermore, i don't need ENCOURAGEMENT from anybody(unless you're really SINCERE) so keep them for yourselves. I reckon you'll need it more than i do. Whether i perform well/drastically in my studies, it's none of your concern.

I reeked of sweats and those wet-laundry smell.
Shall have my bath now.
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I realized i could not get over him.

A few more months left to graduate

but i hoping we never will.

I don't want to leave this place,

a place that brought me both happiness & misery..

But my existence don't not matter to him at all because

He'd already set his eyes on her.

Sometimes i wish,

he'll see me as a guy,

to make communication between us easier.

I told Jared, " I wanted to go for counselling "

but he suggested me to approach him instead. haha.

he's really a Mr BIG NICE guy!

Still, I didn't mention anything except whining and sighing at him.

P/s: I Hope you'll know,

For you*, I'd tried my best.

I'd given up my soul for you long ago.

But I'll give up on you as well after this year.

Things that doesn't belong to you

will NEVER be your possession.

Till now, i begin to understand this.